well, while seeing the re-run of Underworld : Revolution, I just had a glimpse that death is really an important thing in life. Knowing that our journey has an end is what make life should be more meaningful. Use time wisely .. just like spending the money..

I know I'm not a wise spender. Instead of spending it (both money and time) to what I need to do, I spend it to what I want to do. I mean, I always prefer to wait another 5-15 minutes sleep than wake up and get ready or clean my messy room.

Before coming home, I went to the Sampoerna Foundation information session. After going there, I went home feeling a little regret. Why didn't I take my study seriously.. Why didn't I make a clearer wish like Ibu Litta about going study abroad.. Why my career just seem going nowhere...

I know what my friend said is true, that I should stop blamming myself and put those miserable feelings outside of me. But I do feel responsible for I am today now. But I do really want to change my course of life. I wanna be successful, I wanna be affordable to buy my own house .. my car .. beautiful clothes .. my first dog .. I wanna help my parents and make them proud of me.

Starting today, I will use my time wisely and do something useful for my future.. I don't wanna live in the moment anymore. Who I am today determine who I will be in the future. My dear God, help me...
posted by Agnes Kristianti at 11:57 PM